I was born on July 2, 1985 in Staten Island, New York, and grew up in South Florida. I’m the youngest of five siblings. My parents owned and operated restaurants and my siblings and I grew up working in them. And I remember moments of being a really happy kid… until I wasn’t anymore.
I experienced sexual abuse as a child and was unaware of how it showed up in my daily life, which it did. One of the hardest parts was realizing that a lot of my personality and behavior was a defense mechanism because I didn’t feel safe.
Most of my life I felt a little off. A little different. I questioned everything. And I kept most of it inside my head.
One of my first passions in life was bowling and I remember wanting to be a professional. In my early college years I considered studying engineering because I was interested in designing roller coasters.
Those ideas shifted when I decided to take an acting class as an elective. I remember when I was younger saying I wanted to be an actor. I wasn’t into it at first, but then eventually something clicked. It was the first time I felt a sense of belonging and that was powerful for me.
My life became about theatre at that point. Bowling and engineering were thoughts of the past. I was accepted into New World School of the Arts, a conservatory acting program in Miami, where I earned my B.F.A. in 2009.
Then I entered the professional world. Most of my experience was acting, with the occasional writing, directing and producing gig. At that time, I believed that was what I’d be doing for the rest of my life. (See the 'Theatre Reviews' tab for some review highlights and production photos.)
In 2014 I had my first experience with psychedelics. It was filled with love and beauty on a level I hadn’t ever experienced before. Unbeknownst to me, it opened a door and it opened my heart. More on this in a bit.
In 2015 I got to produce and perform my original one person show Small Membership at the New York International Fringe Festival, which was an intense and incredible experience.
After that is when I started asking myself the big questions again: Who am I? What do I really want my life to be?
The answers at that time: I wanted to go backpacking in Europe. I wanted to start a YouTube channel. I wanted to go to L.A. and give the actor/writer dream a shot. And I wanted to go skydiving.
Fear kept me from doing all of it. I didn’t believe I could be the version of me who actually did those things. What helped me get there was a knee injury on a trampoline towards the end of 2016. The universe said to be still and look inside, and I did.
In January 2017, I started a YouTube channel. March of that year I had surgery, which was followed by seven months of physical therapy. In October I went backpacking in Europe. By March of 2018, I moved to L.A. And then in July I went skydiving, six days after turning 33.
After a very intense ego death experience (from a heroic dose of magic mushrooms) in the beginning of 2019, I realized I needed to go to L.A. to let go of L.A., which still took another year due to fear and overthinking.
I was unaware that I was going through a dark night of the soul as many wounds were coming up for healing. I was losing my identity and it felt like I was losing my mind.
And then a pandemic happened and the dark night got even darker, but I was finally ready to sit with what I was running from most of my life.
I did as much healing on my own as I could because I was afraid to ask for help and let people in. After years of solo psychedelic therapy, diving into multiple spiritual practices and self-help methods, I found my way through. And to be honest, the process is constantly evolving.